I'm very happy to hear from you, and appreciate your evaluation very much! When I started reading this aloud it resonated so well with what you were saying - it's so easy to get lost in the rhythm, like getting lost in the obvious parts of a person, singing idly along to the radio. When I stamp the words on my brain and remember how they feel, how *you* feel, is when it really comes alive, when it really becomes beautiful and agonizing. In trying to see all of it or all of anyone, I have to be careful not to see what isn't there, or what's only in me the observer, you know? It so often covers up what is, and what is is so often so much more important and interesting.

Anyway, I hope what you wrote helped you, but even if it didn't yet I know you'll make it through, you always have.