April 9, 2009

• I dont trust you anymore. And you don't even notice or ask why. When I try to talk everything unimportant gets in the way and you let it. Can you even be serious anymore? Were you ever? Did anything not superficial ever matter to you?

  Years ago when I was only uncertain where we stood, I almost died. I had one of those days where you find out who your real friends are or you crash and burn. On the edge I called anyone who could pull me back. Anyone... I am still alive to speak about it because I did. Because the person I only knew for a few months was willing to drive 6 hours there and 6 back to come get me when the person I knew since I was 3 wouldn't because she had a party to go to.

  I can never forgive you. And so our "friendship" is a shadow of a joke. The little sister who I have no bond but blood with and can never let go of. But we don't even have blood.

  I wonder why I talk to you. I wonder why I care. I wonder why I still hurt that you weren't there after all this time.

  Somewhere deep down I must have thought I could count on you.

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