December 18, 2008
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Query: Emotions cross reference Monique
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Query: Emotions
1) I love my brother
2) I hate my addictions
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Query: Normal Pain Responses
1) Destructive Addictions to Escape Pain
a) Fuck Someone Inappropriate
· Dave
· Melissa
· Nicole
· Seno
· Anyone passing by
b) Cut
· Lemon juice
· Salt
c) Suicide Attempt
· Knife
· Pain killers/ Drugs
· Crash Car
· Find Dangerous People
d) Drugs
· Stone
· Acid
· E
· Coke
· Pot
· Whatever I can find
e) Alcohol
· Vodka
· Whatever I can find
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Query: Current Desires cross reference Normal Pain Responses
No match found
Query: Current Desires
1) No one touch me
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Query: Current thoughts
1) I meant to buy Monique roses from that corner guy but every time I knew I’d see her and I drove that way he wasn’t there.
2) Monique has these same gloves, should that bother me?
3) Am I escaping pain by not feeling?
a) Could this be an alternative to addiction?
b) Is this feeding my addiction?
c) Is this healthy?
d) Do I care
4) Do I want her back?
a) Do I want her to fight for me?
5) Am I a lesbian?
6) Could I be mono with a girl?
a) Could I have been mono with Monique?
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Analysis: No alternative action is present and there is no evidence it is needed.
Conclusion: Resume Autopilot.
Comments (3)
I hope everything is ok with you and you get everything straightned out. I really care about you and of course you're in my thoughts and prayers. Don't ever forget that you're a good parson and that you've come so far, & deserve to be with someone that treats you the way you DESERVE to be treated. Whatever it is, I know you can get through it and come out strong! Blessed Be!
>3,
~Stephie
edit:
<3*
remember talking to me way back?
I know, long time no talk lol
anyways, just thought I'd let you know I've started youtubing : ]
http://www.youtube.com/user/TransexualTriumphs
bye
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