June 8, 2008

• Hope is the worst of all evils for it prolongs the torment of man.

  But torment me in this limbo
  Tween wakin and sleepin
  Tween misery and ecstasy
  Tween cold hard breaths
  And warm soft moans

  Im walking down a long dark tunnel
  Wont you walk with me
  Hold my hand?
  Scream my wretched screams...
  NO! Dont look at my weakness!

  Ive come so far...
  Ive healed so much...

  AM I GOING ANYWHERE????

  Dont listen to the words I whisper underneath my breath
  Words echoed in my carress
  We arent ready for those words
  You hear them, but please pretend they dont exist

  Long ago I put your name on my body...
  Cant I heal you with these words?
  You put your name on your body
  To cover opened wounds
  We put that name to our bodies
  So together and so alone
  Come with me

  Do you hear me, sweetly softly?
  Im calling your new name
  I couldnt tell you how it sounds
  But I know its not the same
  Do you want me, sweetly softly?
  In the power of the night
  This passions sweeping over me
  Ragin to the mornin light

  NO! I have to bite my tongue...
  THOSE WORDS!!!

  Why is it easier to push you away
  When Im drownin in my need?
  Than when you fill me up with ecstasy?:

  Its nothing, sleep, be well
  Ill watch over you
  When the sun awakens it will be safe again
  Can I lay me down to sleep
  With his arms around me and you in mine?
  I think I could feel whole again
  Until the end of time...

  This time is over, far too soon
  But I will dream of you
  Have the courage to discover
  All that you can do
  And listen to my whispered words
  That I dare not say aloud
  Someday we will speak them
  In more than a touch's inward shout

  And oh hope, this misery!
  I fear I wont survive
  And yet it is hope's misery
  That makes me feel alive.

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