November 26, 2007

• Forever

  Woke up in a scream today
  Toss and turn
  Eyes squeezed shut
  Trying to imagine both of you with your arms around me
  But my weak imagination falters
  Chained down
  It can't trap the imagine in my mind
  Sticky blood, drip, drip, drip
  The stale cold smell of morning
  The lingering death
  Don't let me wake up
  It could all just stop
  The heavy base beat heart could cease to pump
  Scream bitch scream
  Why don't I fight anymore?
  These sick and twisted visions
  I wont, I won't scream
  Stab
  Gasp
  Scream
  SCREAM
  Just stop, I'll scream!
  I can't hold out long enough to DIE
  Two hearts pull me up
  Two hearts hold me up
  Two hearts I live for
  But I'm afraid to let you see me cry
  What might you see...
  Could I loose your heart?
  What does he see in me, what good could be in me?
  All I see is the little girl taped down to the floor
  Giving in
  Screaming
  All I see is the little girl hiding in the closet
  Useless
  Scared
  All I see is the little SLUT holding her dead friend
  Too late
  To save...
  Because I was lost in ADDICTION
  I don't want to hurt you
  I would rather die than hurt you
  But I will
  For too soon that knife will tempt
  You won't be real, a foolish fantasy
  How stupid, the little slut dreams of love
  DON'T WANT WHAT YOU CAN'T HAVE 
  Can't break a promise to someone who doesn't exist, who is too perfect to possibly exist
  But I wished for you and him
  Here you are, you hold me up
  As my darkest day dawns again
  Don't let me go!
  If I could reach into my pocket and touch a piece of you...
  Yes, I can breathe
  Why would you want my cold and cracking heart?
  Peel away the stone, all there is is blood
  Why do you want this mass of wounds?
  I'm not worth the time it would take to heal me
  But take it!
  It's yours!
  It's all I have to give the loves of my life!
  I would give you anything...
  But I all I have left is my battered heart
  Please
  Then I can reach into my pocket and hang on to you
  Give you a tiny piece of me
  If I live that night forever
  If I watch her die forever
  If I am a frightened child forever
  Let me too, be with you forever
  It is all I have to give
  Both of you have my heart
  Forever

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